week 25

people say that gestational diabetes could be the reason you're so small. so i tested this morning and my sugars were 89. i ate then two hours later tested again and it was 108 or something like that. im not sure i have it and maybe tomorrow the doctors will give me the order to go get this nasty test done :(. im getting more nervous as the days get closer to seeing you with the specialist! from what the other techs say everything about you looks amazing youre just measuring small. i dont get it! i wish i knew more about it but i dont. and apparently your dad doesnt want me too look anything up because hes scared it will scare me. which i hate to say it he's probably right! they also tell me to eat more! i dont know how much more i can eat im ALWAYS hungry and i feed you at least 6 times a day. i tried to take a nap with your brother today and you were not happy about that at all! you kept kicking him i think youre the jealous type already <3. oh and guess what 25 weeks today and hopefully youre growing more like youre suppose to! i read that this week you should be flipping head down because you little missy are in the breech position. i am kind of worried about what the doctor is going to say tomorrow i always hate hearing bad news although i already know whats semi going on with you. just a couple more days miss Aurora until i can see your face again. i love you and until next time <3

love mom!

Just thinking.

They told me I have an anterior placenta and I may never feel you, but you miss Aurora make your presence known. You kick me and I just love the feeling! Thank you. Thank you for letting me know you're ok in there. Feeling you makes me so happy! During this stressful time I need some kind of reminder. Thank you thank you thank you! 

24 weeks

At 24 weeks I found out you were measuring smaller than your gestation. We've had multiple ultrasounds and it seems like you are measuring a week and four days behind. I feel like this is my fault I failed you but everyone tells me we don't exactly know what's caused this. We go see a specialist who will look at you closer and better to make sure you're growing right because sometimes some ultrasound techs don't see what they need to. I'm worried about you but I know that can cause you to not grow as much either. I know I've been stressed the last month with moving and in sorry I put you through that. I love you Aurora Sky-Lynn. I want you to be as healthy as can be. Keep growing keep kicking to tell me you're ok in there. I can't wait to see your beautiful face baby girl I love you. ❤️love mom. 

Until next time.